Taking a Leak
Dear Diary
I distract myself by taking a leak over a morbid reality. It hisses and reeks of urea, but isn't completely extinguished. The stench keeps me out of harm's way, I tell myself. I have a roof over my head and a loaf of bread to put on the table. I wake up early then go to sleep earlier. In between, I fill my time with physical chores to burn the bland calories I swallow to stay alive. I'm learning a new language and brushing up on an old one. I untether my mind to roam in an imaginary world with two moons which have become more real than the here and now. I drown myself in fiction about love and despair. Human nature eludes me, so I work hard to be normal.
My back is stiff with the burden of conscience. Had those I care about chose to leave it all behind and go somewhere else to start anew, I wouldn't have to keep my mouth shut. It pains me that I can't write what I long to put into words. The biggest insult is to be looked upon as a neutral, for no one out there is so twisted as to imagine that I could be one of them Arab elitist, leftist, liberal mother-fuckers who mushroom in the sordid cesspits of tyranny. As for neutrals, in this day and age, they are but neutered little shits, miserable sons of bitches, fuckheads, partners in crime against humanity.
I'm a man of two worlds, caught and torn between duty and dream, missing the line inscribed by Occam's razor and... waiting.
Comments
I agree. No one is neutral. There are those who are afraid to voice their opinions for fear of retaliation. They are victims of circumstances. Obviously not everyone can or should be a hero.
As for those who claim neutrality for other reasons, it is my opinion that they mainly do it to save face and keep afloat. Their "material" well being is deeply entwined with the prevalence and continuous survival of the oppressor. Yet, they are weary of the table being turned, in which case they want to insure that they don't lose it all.
I called them "neutered little shits, miserable sons of bitches, fuckheads, partners in crime against humanity." I think I was too soft on them. It's mainly due to my benevolent and mild mannered nature.
But people who are neutral to protect others from harm are only pretending that they are. They are much more decent than those who pretend to be WITH the majority of those around them so that they could fit in comfortably, kind of blend in really.
I can't really blame them. Sometimes I'm forced to feign neutrality to avoid harm for myself and for those around me.
But consider the vocal "neutrals", say on Social Media. What a bunch of hemorrhoids!!!
Thank you for dropping by dude. I hope to see you again one day soon when neutrals and crabs are things of the past ;-)
لا يمكن لأي إنسان يحمل هم نفسه وأولاده ومجتمعه ووطنه أن يطنسش
أتصور أن البعض منا يحاول خلق واقع رديف لكي يستطيع العيش بالحد الأدنى ليس إلا
أشاركك المنى بغد مشرق جميل مليءبالعدالة والمساواة والحرية