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Friday, October 20, 2006

Ramadan Blues

A street in the old section of Tartous (Al-Barrieh) an hour or two before Iftar time

After all is said and done, I will miss Ramadan. I personally have to admit that I've got really tired in the last week. I look forward my life returning to normal. I've had very little and disrupted sleep over the last month. Before it even started, I was advised to eat dinner at least a couple of hours before going to bed. In Ramadan, that was virtually impossible. I was continuously uncomfortable but not to the point of really complaining about it all the time. I felt underpowered in the mornings and totally drained in the afternoons. After Iftar, I was a useless lump. I went out to spend time with friends very rarely, just three or four times at the most. My efficiency at the office had decreased dramatically, while many of the European associates I work with have absolutely no idea what's going on with me and Ramadan. When something needs to be done, I just had to do it. If it had taken me an hour to complete a task before, in Ramadan it took me just about the whole day.

At the Iftar Table, Shorba, Fattoush, Fatteh, Hommos & Kebbeh Nayeh

To top it all, and to make my life as miserable as possible, my laptop decided to quit on me in the middle of a very busy day. It is still changing laps from one technician to the other. I need my hundreds of files and so far they have not been able to retrieve them for me. I learned my lesson the very hard way. After thirteen years of using the PC and after preaching and advocating to anyone within earshot the importance of backing up data regularly, I failed to do so myself. It's amazing how much trust we put in technology. An unexpected failure becomes truly a disaster. I am working with a surrogate PC and my feelings are exactly the same as if I have been on a bad date for one week but can't get myself out of it. I miss my laptop, the dozens of thoughts I have written when in the mood to post later at my leisure, the hundreds of photos I've taken since my last backup. I miss my desktop just the way I always liked it with a picture of a gorgeous woman gracing it and changing her every few days. Eventually, I will get over it and start again, matching my laptop's personality with mine.

Ateyef Asafiri with cream filling and grated pistachios

Ramadan made me humble, more tolerant, more accepting. Despite the nuisances, it feels great that the less fortunate would be able to celebrate the coming Eid Al-Fitr, thanks to the generosity and contributions of the more fortunate. My eleven year old princess was able to fast every single day of the entire month. This has boosted her self confidence so high that I can readily notice that she had matured within this short time frame. The daily Iftar with my dad at our table has meant so much for all of us and had brought us closer. My not going out with the guys and my slow production cycle at work meant that the kids and Omfares got more of me. Whether this is good or bad, I leave to them.

A box of dried fruits, always present on the coffee table in the living room after Iftar

Three more days before Eid Al-Fitr. I wish each and every one of you, Muslim or not a very Happy Eid. The spirit of this Eid is to thank. We thank our fellow humans for the opportunity to help or being helped. We thank our family and friends for being there for us when we need them. And, we thank God for taking the time to bring us to this world to witness the splendor and joy of life. Struggling, aspiring, reaching, enjoying… whatever phase we are in right now, life is still worth living.
The pictures I include with this post are nothing special but a small reminder of a month gone. Again Happy Eid and God Bless!

4 comments:

I love Munich said...

Beautiful post ... and GREAT pictures! What's written on these flags?
You describe your feelings, the way you perceive things and your thoughts in an exceptional way ... I SO MUCH enjoyed reading your post!!
The food makes me drool ... it looke SO YUMMY!!

What can I say ... you have a MOST BEAUTIFUL soul dear friend - no doubt about that!! You're very special!

Shannon said...

"Struggling, aspiring, reaching, enjoying… whatever phase we are in right now, life is still worth living."

I don't think it can be said any better than that. Happy Eid to you and your family.

Anonymous said...

First, I agree with Shannon comment! it cannot be said any better ..

The photos look so yummy, especially the box of dried fruits even though I am not so much into dried fruits or fruits in general. Maybe because there are 4.5hrs to go for iftar and I am "drained"! For us it is one more day.

I pray to God to accept from all those who fasted, and to have mercy on us all.
Abu Abdo

abufares said...

Hello Karin
Thank you for your very kind words. "Ramadan Karim" is what's written on the flags. The food is good as you've said. I'm all hope we get to share "salt & bread" one day.

Hi Shannon
Thank you for dropping by. Always a pleasure to know that you've been here and took the trouble of commenting as well.

Hi Abu Abdo
One more day for you, that's really great because it means that we have 2 more days to go, counting today.
Thank you for stopping by.